Alright y'all I'm about ready to lose my mind , if I could get away with murder I would be at my sons fathers house…

I agree with @icebergahead . You've moved on, don't dwell on the guy who doesn't have his life together. It'll only hurt you. If all he cares about is getting high and not being a parent, that's on him. You can't change it. All you can do is protect your child from it by not allowing him to have visitation alone, and get it court mandated so it isn't an issue any longer. And I know that this third child is happening at what appears the "wrong time", but as you said, you'll love the new baby too. You just need to get in the right headspace to handle what you need to and be ready for the next. You've got this.

I think it is time for you to not worry about what your child’s father does and does not do and just move on and take care of your child. Let it go. It will only drown you in hate which clearly does not benefit you or your child. Just remember that those children depend on you regardless of whom sticks around in your and their lives. Stability is needed.

I work 12-8 monday-friday so we barely ever see each other only on weekends.

I'm sorry you're going through a hard time. You sound a bit depressed. Have you talk to anyone about these problems your having?

Your bf's schedule isn't so bad! He has good hours! You guys have enough time to bond! Don't stress out too much. Just let you boyfriend know about your concerns.