Another thing I wanted to quickly point out, when I have a panic attack I can’t breathe I know that’s normal but I get extra terrified because of my asthma and I’m worried I’d end up having an asthma attack too. I told her this and she asked when I last used my pump, I used it all up years ago but cos of my anxiety i find it really hard to walk into the doctors. Silly I know but that’s how bad I am. The meds she prescribed said *DO NOT TAKE IF YOU SUFFER WITH ASTHMA* I told her this and she said if I used a pump years ago it’s probably improved. After an hour of taking the meds my chest was killing and literally was having paint right where my heart was.

Btw it’s nice to meet someone else that has a son called Arlo, I haven’t met anyone with the same name until now😂

I told her I’m strongly against counselling and therapy because I’ve had it multiple times in the past and she said just medication won’t get me past this. It’s very hard for me to say no and the fact that I’ve been sticking to my guns and rejecting it and they won’t have it makes me feel like shit. They said they didn’t want to look at medication first because of side effects etc but I said I was against before because I wanted to try other ways but I have and I just want to try some now. Also what gets me is I’m literally at breaking point and she said we might look at medication in the future and I’m like um.. lady you told me meds take at least 6 weeks to work! You don’t understand I’m not coping I’ve never coped since a teenager if they take that long to work I don’t want to wait any longer!x

Im 22 too, why won't they give you medication? That's really strange they started me off at 16 with psychologists and counsellors and shit but they didn't hesitate to put me on antidepressants once I reached 18 and I've changed doctors too with moving around even had different ones given because the others didn't agree with me and he recently upped my dosage, I'd go back and put your foot down with them x

Ugh:( I get too nervous over anything. Someone knocking the door I literally can’t answer it same for phone calls. I’ve been working at a shop for nearly 2 months and the boss said I’m great but every single day before I go into work I have the worst nervous belly I get diarrhoea a lot because I’m constantly on edge sorry for the tmi but it’s true. I don’t feel like I’m just living anymore I’m trying to survive instead. With my older doctor sometimes I couldn’t even turn up at appointments the nerves would get to me id panic and jump into into fight or flight mode and heck I flew a lot. X

When I finally went to the drs after putting it off my dr was really good. Because my anxiety came down to groups of strangers and it was stopping taking my boy to baby’s group ect it was affecting everyone. I was really against pills but she gave me some PRN pills. Basically when I get hat feeling building up I took a tablet and it takes the edge off. They worked really well for me x

I just feel too down to do anything. Feel too down to eat, too down for family time etc I can’t sleep because I’m constantly over thinking. I can’t even explain how much my panic attacks terrify me and the fact I stress about the next one brings another one on. I’m literally at a loss this has been happening since I was 16 I’m now 22. Are they waiting for something to happen?😩 I just don’t know. I don’t fall asleep for hours and when I eventually do I have night terrors so I’m back up again soon enough. I don’t know what else to tell the doctor I begged for help last time, what’s it going to take 😩x