C section vent ?

I can not stop crying !!! I went to the doctors this morning and I knew I was going to need a c section since this will be my 3rd c section and usually my doctor performs them at 39 weeks. My due date is June 19th and my doctor said she’s going to perform the c section on my due date because she’s going to be out of the country for almost a month!!! She’s going to be gone from May until June 16th!!! I’m totally crushed and devastated because if I go into labor, she won’t be here!!! And my husband works away and he probably won’t be here either if I go into labor before my due date!!! I’m so crushed! We already had all the plans for the baby to be here by the 12th. My son was born at 38 weeks. I went into labor naturally and he was my first. I’m just hoping this baby stays put until my doctor comes back and my husband is home. Sorry, I just really need to vent.