spiritually atuned people
I was thinking about my best friend alot lately. I knew her since we were 9 and the best times of my life were always with her. She started going down the wrong road and it was getting bad. I was in a vulnerable position at the time and distanced myself from her the past few years. Then had my son. I never got to smooth things over. But always thought once I get my life together and finish school I will reach out to her again and we can continue where we left off as was usually the case. Last week I had a dream she died. And it bothered me I told a few people about it and they said she would bring me down blah blah blah...I thought surely she might have her life straightened out by now and was thinking about calling but never did. Then last night a mutual friend we had tells me she relapsed and died in March. She was a beautiful person inside and out. I wish I never left her when she needed me. I thought there so much time left. she had a good heart but encountered some really shady people and was losing herself. My question is , since we were so close growing up I feel like my dream she died was her way of letting me know she past on. Is this a possibility? Because I feel it is more than a coincidence.
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I feel a sense of closure having the dream, like she knows everything now and is finally free. Its so hard to process. We had our lives written out when we were younger. Where we would live, go to school etc.. Its sucks how life doesn't always turn out how we expected. The best times of my life were with her, this shouldn't have happened. I feel like I'll never find another friend like her this world can be so judgemental amd cold :(
I need to stay strong for my son but it really hurts remembering. I feel like my since my bf didnt like her I never smoothed things out. I guess it could have been bad if I stayed close friends but if I was only there from a distance it probably wouldn't have felt as bad losing her as this does.