I haven't had my period this month last month I had pink spotting ... I'm so scared to test I tried to do the waiting…

I haven't had my period this month last month I had pink spotting ... I'm so scared to test I tried to do the waiting game to see if I should wait until the 31st or something because I figured it's jus late . But Idk because last month I didn't really have neither so like I'm so scared to get a (-) or it may be another reason why I'm not getting my period for two months .. My doc apt is coming up but I'm so impatient... 🙄 I wake up so happy every time I go to the restroom and see no blood but ugh I've tested so much I don't wanna get my hopes up..