Hi guys. Things have been kinda been rough for me for about a week now, Looks like reality finally hit me and been panicking and haven't been able to sleep.. The reality finally hit me and I keep on thinking "OMG what did I get myself into?" And been Thinking about all the things I'm not going to be able to do any more and how everything is going to be much harder than usual. And also I hope it doesn't offend anybody, but I'm upset that I'm having a boy this time, I know that sounds awful to say and I hate that I feel that way, I know there's a lot of couples out there who aren't able to have children and I should be grateful that I was able to have 2 girls and now a boy, but honestly, I just really wanted another girl and. Having a hard time grasping that I'm gonna have a boy im hoping when I do give birth and I see him all I'll completely change that way of thinking because when I was pregnant with another girl I was upset about that, but then I was so happy when I had her, all I had to do was look at her so I'm hoping that things will be the same when I see Him. Also, I have 2 girls and one whos 11, and one who's 7, me and my husband split up and the girls live with him, so now I'm having a baby and I feel like I am kinda cheating on my daughters by having another baby and they told me flat out that they're not happy about it at all. I'm sure that there is at least somebody out there that is had the same feelings before, but I feel like a horrible person and I feel like I'm being selfish and just feel like a piece of crap, and it's really hard to grasp that within 2 to 3 weeks, maybe sooner. I am going to have a baby in my arms again. Its been 8 years since I had a baby. So I be a little rusty, but I can guarantee it will all come back to me, I have a 1000 books that I've read in the past, and when I had my first daughter I knew exactly what to do, I didn't need any help from anybody. I was a pro right from the start. I hope I didnT offend anybody, but just now I feel awful that I feel this way. Anyone else dealt with this? I'd like to hear your stories.. And what did you do to stop thinking that way?