Ok, I swear 2 years ago you would have caught me meditating. Nope, I would not have even given it a thought. It's not because I thought it was stupid, on the contrary at one point in my life I want to become Wiccan and do everything that came with it. I have quite an amazing collection of crystals from that point in my life as well.

No, it was because my mindset wasn't ready to open it's self up to the Motherload (as Jen Sincero calls it). I couldn't slow myself down. I was in a constant state of anxiety, fear, and depression. I idea of having to be alone in my own head and trying not to think of the hardships that were going on in my life wasn't something I wanted to do. My ADD also makes it hard for me to stop and slow down. My pain does a good job of slowing my body down but my brain over works and stresses it's self out quite nicely pain or not.

It's been 7 days of using this Calm app but 8 full days of doing 5 minutes of meditating. Now I'm still a brand new baby when it comes to this and I'm still learning the ins and outs of meditating. I don't think I am fully meditating yet, my brain is still cranking away in there, but I am noticing small pockets of blankness. Moments where I feel all light and well it's hard to explain, not levitating but almost kind of a dizzy or vertigo in my body type feeling. Then as soon as I feel that there goes my brain "OMG you just were in the fracking zone yes! Ah shit, I'm thinking" Lol.

Is meditating drastically changing my life? Am I noticing a difference in myself from this? No, my life isn't better from meditating (yet). As for am I noticing a change in myself? It's hard to say to be honest. I think I'm able to focus a bit more and maybe I have a tad bit more patience with Sammy? But again it's still the early stages of this path in my life. One thing it is doing is making me appreciate being me and being with myself, no distractions (for the most part, Sammy and Owen lol). Me just being with me and getting comfortable with her. I think if nothing else that is an amazing thing that is coming out of this!

As for my goals with this next week of this journey I want to start asking The Motherload a question before I start my practice and see if she gives me signs as to the answers! I also want to go a bit longer this coming week!

If you all want a post on my thoughts of the Calm App just let me know!

So what are your thoughts on meditating?! Would you want to join me on this journey of self-discovery and love? Let me know guys!