I've been scaring myself with my thoughts and down feeling lately and they have been progressively been getting worse…

I've been scaring myself with my thoughts and down feeling lately and they have been progressively been getting worse over the past month. I look at my beautiful 2 month old son and feel nothing but anger and resentment, hopeless and sadness. I know that's not normal and trying to ignore it hasn't worked so here I am at the Dr's. I haven't been able to eat. I Barley sleep, my breast milk supply is suffering due to stress and depression. My son cries all the time and demands to be held constantly so I don't get time to even play with, or give attention to my one in a half year old daughter. I'm suffering and I finally told my husband who had no idea. He only saw my moodiness as a lack of sleep. I'm fortunate he us very supportive and urged me to be seen. Ladies if the scary thought and blues do not go away. Get seen. I hope today I can have the help I need to be the best mother and wife I can be.