I feel like a terrible person, ive been talking to this guy for like 9 months and our relationship has been strictly over the phone. Ive slowly fallen for him and the feeling his mutual with him. We facetime sometimes, talk every second and i think hes an amazing man! Everything i want but i cant find it in myself to go and see him even though i want to. I just got out of an abusive relationship with the daughter of my father before we started talking (who wants to get back with me) . That in itself is scary for me to get back into one. Plus im self conscious, over think shit and have anxiety about all of it...i just feel horrible because i know he really likes me and wants to see and literally has continued talking to me despite me always telling him no. He doesnt push it. I just cant and feel so selfish for it. I think my last relationship made me feel like i wasnt good enough like i was ugly and it honestly makes me cry just thinking about it. I dont see this guy ever making me feel this way but im scared to risk it, im not ready as much i want to be ready for him how fucked is that? . Im scared to put myself out there and i know i cant expect someone to wait forever for me. I dont feel good enough for anyone....ughhhh i want to stop talking to him because i feel like im hurting us both but i feel like thats selfish too...everyone keeps telling me to stop being scared but I CANT!
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It is scary even though i know this guys a good guy i still fear getting my heart broken some how @goodbyelullaby
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My ex husband was abusive and I'm terrified to meet a man just like him. I totally get your situation
Lol girl come take this shit im clearly out my mind lol @gabbiewill
Omggg lol 😭😭 @gabbiewill i cant help it sometimes lol
Thank you though i really appreciate it. Thats Why all my friends keep telling me to stop being a pussy😭😭😭 @gabbiewill
He works so damn much wed only have so much time for us to actually hang out so i know it wouldn't be all the time. I just stress myself so much about the initial meet. The First impression. Like im going in for a damn interview or something lol @gabbiewill
You guys are giving me life right now. I needed this. @gabbiewill @samanthapap
Man i have been and i feel like it adds some tension though he wont admit it or he doesnt want to mess it up lose me whatever the case i still know its fucked up of me..i just feel like i have to be better..i have to better myself before i can be with anyone and idk how i can balance a man into my life even though ive grown to really love him and cant stop now @gabbiewill
Just this alone had to make me stop for a minute and go give him some appreciation lol
This man is seriously so exceptional in my eyes. Everything he does, all the hours he works ontop of being a good dad and busting his ass ontop of making time for me. Hes like a fucking superhuman and its hard for me to make excuses for other men since ive met him.
How long did it take you to finally move on?? It sucks i still have my ex in my ear wanting to get back together, improving his life but still not being the man i thought he was or the man i want in my life... to my daughter or me so its just not going to happen ever with him. I cant go back to someone who did me that way plus ontop of all the fighting we still do . i feel like theres never really going to be any resolution between us or getting over past stuff to move forward but thats great im glad you found someone who you can be happy with! @shylamarie
I completely understand. I was in an abusive relationship for over a year before I met my now boyfriend. It's so hard to even think about being with someone after that, but it is possible. We have been together for almost 2 years now, and we have our daughter and things couldn't be any more perfect. Not everyone is bad. You will heal 💗
@gabbiewill i be thinking that all the time. I just want to be like come over noww lol
I knooow omg real tears 😭 i scare myself out of shit and think the worst with almost everything @gabbiewill when i know majority of the time i actually just do it i enjoy it so much and am like why am i like this lol
Youre so rightttt i overreacted the other day and thought it was probably it for us talking anymore then felt terrible about it and told him maybe we could plan something out because i know it way overdue and i cant keep having these feeling towards him and not hanging out with him and expect him to wait around for it im honestly surprised he has this long. Hes a trooper @gabbiewill
I told him before not to wait for me and he was like id wait for 1000 of you like 😭😭😭 @gabbiewill
I know ughh i feel like i got some serious issues to keep doing this too myself 😭😭 @gabbiewill
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