I feel like a terrible person, ive been talking to this guy for like 9 months and our relationship has been strictly over the phone. Ive slowly fallen for him and the feeling his mutual with him. We facetime sometimes, talk every second and i think hes an amazing man! Everything i want but i cant find it in myself to go and see him even though i want to. I just got out of an abusive relationship with the daughter of my father before we started talking (who wants to get back with me) . That in itself is scary for me to get back into one. Plus im self conscious, over think shit and have anxiety about all of it...i just feel horrible because i know he really likes me and wants to see and literally has continued talking to me despite me always telling him no. He doesnt push it. I just cant and feel so selfish for it. I think my last relationship made me feel like i wasnt good enough like i was ugly and it honestly makes me cry just thinking about it. I dont see this guy ever making me feel this way but im scared to risk it, im not ready as much i want to be ready for him how fucked is that? . Im scared to put myself out there and i know i cant expect someone to wait forever for me. I dont feel good enough for anyone....ughhhh i want to stop talking to him because i feel like im hurting us both but i feel like thats selfish too...everyone keeps telling me to stop being scared but I CANT!