Anyone else ever deal with postpartum? How long did it last? What did you do to cope with it?
My sons 1 1/2 and I feel like it's just gotten worse over the months. And there's days I wake up and I'm okay. And then things happen like my sons tantrums today and I feel myself falling down again. I just want to break down crying right now. My husbands not very supportive about it either. He just kinda shuts me out when I'm like this. Which makes it worse. I just want this feeling to stop creeping on me. I'm tired of being sad. I'm tired of smoking almost a pack a day because that's all I know how to cope with it. I'm tired of feeling worthless or like I'm not good enough for my son. I'm tired of feeling like they'd be better off without me. I've dealt with depression, anxiety, and ptsd since I was a kid, never took any medicine for it. And it just seems to be getting worse since I had my son. I want to wake up and be happy for him. I'm tired of my son having to see me like this.