I feel like the worst mom ever...

My son won't even let me put him to sleep. He only wants my room mate his baby sitter...

I'm gone so f@#$ing much for work that he prefers her to me.....

She has seen all of his first....he goes to her when he's upset, when he's hungry, when he wants to play....

I feel like I'm putting my job before him but im not!!! I wouldn't work if I didn't have to!!

I'm missing the best years of my son's life....i can't stop crying right now...