Ever since I have had Nevaeh I have so much more respect for myself. When she looks at me I just feel so empowered and so whole.
I have also noticed my SO has done so good with her like extremely well and loves on her constantly.
But I can't help but not feel the same anymore, I know things have changed and we're looking forward but I have been making obvious excuses for him.. and his behavior.
I didn't deserve to be lied to constantly, cheated on, told I'm not shit, I don't deserve him, I don't deserve his time, effort etc.
He hasn't disrespected me since Iv had her all smiles all love all commitment. How long will this last?
I don't know why I'm so down, I just look at him and can't help but wonder why the hell I put up with it so long.
I care for him don't get me wrong, but I look at my baby and I immediately think,
Who the hell is he? Who is HE to do those things to me? Who is HE to hurt my feelings? WHO does he think he is?
Maybe it's just my hormones but I hope it passes because I want to try and work on things, but then again, maybe the damage has been done.
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