I just can't.....

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

Because I can't sit here and watch Bolt for the 8,000th time, let's take a trip down memory lane!

I can't take it anymore! Haley (yes my 1mth old and no I wasn't able to go through this "joy" of nursing my older daughter, Molly) has been screaming non stop for 6hrs! All she wants to do is eat and I can't have her attached to me all day, everyday! She has wanted to eat every hr on the hr for the past 3hrs! I put her in her room so I don't scream at her but I just can't take it!

**VENTING***

I have been a stay at home mom for 9 months and I absolutely HATE IT! I want a job, I need to get out of this house. but we can't afford 800$ daycare each month on top of 1,000$ rent. I'm losing it and my husband is too. I have no idea what to do. we cant live off one paycheck. but I can't work without childcare, but if we can't afford childcare than how am I suppose to work?! I'm so lost.