I swear at 38 weeks. I think any pains I get might be contractions and like I really hope they don't go away or stop.

I will be 41 :/
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Things I never thought I'd say...
Until I became a mom:
Omg!!!! I feel the exact same way. It's usually gas for me lol I hate it. I keep getting all these new crazy pains and I feel like they are all contractions and then they are either constant cramps which can't possibly be contractions bc they don't come and go. Or they are gas pains and I end up farting all night. Or they are the lightning bolt pains in my vagina bc she's dropped into my pelvis.