"I felt you. You were a pea. Then a lemon. Then an eggplant. I followed advice. I read twelve books. I quit coffee.…

"I felt you. You were a pea. Then a lemon. Then an eggplant. I followed advice. I read twelve books. I quit coffee. Could you tell I was scared? I talked to you, sang to you... I wasn't ready. But then you were here. Ten toes. 6 pounds 10 ounces. Love. Big fat love. I held you. I fed you. I realized that I would spend my life doing things to make you happy -- and that that would make me happy. And then there are the times I want to give up. You've made me rethink my sanity. You've made me want to fall on my mother's feet and tell her that I get it. But then you smile and you say my name -- and you grab my hand with those little fingers. We're growing together. We are seeing the world like it's new. I will open my heart and love will rain down all over you. You'll giggle, and I'll do it all over again. And we will walk hand in hand. Until you let go. I made you, but you made me a mother."

Thank you Finley, for being yourself. You are the most amazing little boy in my world. You are so smart and inquisitive. You are kind and gentle. You are sweet and loving. You are beautiful. I love you so much my sweet boy. I can not believe that you are 1 already. You may be growing up, but my baby you will always be. One year ago today you were born. I made you, but you made me a mother and I am so thankful and blessed that you came into my life. This year has flown by so quickly, you have done so many amazing things. I can not wait to see what the future has in store for you. You are going to do so many more amazing things in your life. Happy 1st Birthday Finley Jude♡ Mommy loves you more than you will ever know:*