@adagogirl

I tried. They said I had to go to my primary and my primary couldn't see me until like a week and a half later. I felt better that weekend so I canvelled the appointment and then had another bad day. I've dome my research and I wanna try doing it without meds but trying to get my people to understand is the hard part. My mom is the just talk to Jesus about it. And my boyfriend is the just power through my sister makes me feel like I'm ill

I completely understand. I didn't even whisper a word about my anxiety until my second son was 5 months old. My mom didn't understand she is a "power through" it kind of woman. But ppa is often something we can't just power through. I suggest telling your obgyn.

Its just hard not being able to feel like I can 100% talk to someone. My boyfriend doesn't understand how I feel, why it's happening, or he's just genuinely not listening completely when I talk to him about it. I'm afraid to scare him so I keep it in. I just wanna laugh and smile again @adagogirl

You aren't alone trust me. I have ppa and it's a struggle sometimes but knowing there are other moms just like you helps.