At the doctor appointment today, my SO's mother was in the building (she works with physicians on…

At the doctor appointment today, my SO's mother was in the building (she works with physicians on medical record department)...I know she doesn't like me because he hid me from her along with the pregnancy. And well that was the second time I saw her for little visits. She gave me so many dirty looks and now she made a baby shower date for their family to come and see me and "get to know me" and understand why my SO hid me from them. That's two baby showers I'll be super uncomfortable to go to...the one my mother is throwing this weekend...is full of people who always insult me to my face and family members who don't like me because I'm "too white". Now I'm having to be scolded by his family who always throws his failures at his face and I'll have to sit there listening and holding my tongue because he doesn't want me to interfere with the issues his family has. I swear I'm dying inside. I'm scrounging for a way to not go to both baby showers but I have to go for the baby. My family, as well as his, gives me panic attacks...I don't know how well it's going to be. Even now I'm doing my best to not have a panic attack right now. I'm trying so hard to control my breathing. My family is terrible and from what I was told from my SO's sisters, their mother isn't a good person to get along with. God this isn't easy. I tried so hard working to get out of my miserable upbringing only to accidentally fall back into a family who does the same as my family does to their children. Great. I'll be so happy when my SO and I move away to start fresh. Can anyone relate? I'm sure some of you ladies do in some form or fashion.