I hope it gets better and my tips help :) your not alone :)

Lol it is actually really shocking how similar our stories are right now! I'm the same way.. I stay away from meds because the same reason! Moms an addict I was also adopted..

@corinalopez, thank you very much girl I do really appreciate that someone took their time to write me back I was pretty desperate lol yah i have really bad insomnia it's strange when I sleep on the couch I have zero problems and I can sleep just fine but in my bedroom with my kids around me I can never sleep the same way I'm always awake I just bundle so much feelings up I know it's not good so I think it's best for me to try to talk to someone because I myself don't know what the root is but I'd like to find out! And as far as the medication goes I always try to stay away from any pills I don't need due to my young childhood past with my bio mom I was actually adopted and long story short she was an addict of everything and anything and I am always so afraid of like ending up like her😰 so I try to stay clear of things but I'll just have to see how everything goes! thank you again you have helped me calm down actually enough to hopefully now get some sleep! I will definitely try those methods that you do though I always freeze and make it worse!

@waters1994, yep same here.. esp during high stress times.. for me anxiety is usually paired with insomnia. It's difficult I've had it for many many years and still struggle with it.. all you can do is try different things and see what works for you.. I feel like I now manage it pretty well that it's not totally disruptive to my daily life most of the time but if nothing is helping you may just need medication and that's totally fine nothing wrong with it :) maybe even some therapy to help cope :) see what's triggering it

@corinalopez, thank you so much girl I really appreciate this that sounds like something that I need to do myself I haven't yet figured out a way to control it I freak out on top of freaking out lol and then it makes it tottaly worse for me😢 it's also affecting the way I sleep too and it'll make me not want to go to sleep and try to sleep at weird times but be up most of the time no matter how much I try to force myself?? is that the same for you? I'm all new to this I had my baby girl in Aug and after her I mm sure I felt these symptoms pregnant with her but not so extreme and then after I had her it seemed like it was 100x worse😰

I suffer from anxiety mine personally gets worse during pregnancy.. I've always refused medication because of my own personal reasons..things that help me are when i feel like an attack is coming on I try and stop what I'm doing and focus on something I count all the different things I can see around the room.. take deep breaths.. put my arms on my head.. count from 10-1 pay attention to my different senses what can I see around the room what can I smell what can I feel I feel the fabric of my jeans or the texture of something next to me.. sometimes it takes a short time to pass sometimes it feel like forever and sometimes it gets to the point where I have a complete meltdown.. but my meltdowns have been a lot more rare when I do these things. Sounds a little crazy and I was embarrassed to try it at first.. but it's a lot better than melting down thinking I'm about to die.. I got these tips from therapy as a kid.. I've struggled with it a long time