I am so upset and I need to vent. Back in July of 2015 my husband and I decided to move out to Minnesota. Because we had no other place to go and we wanted an escape. We stayed there until our landlord screwed us over. We managed to come back to California thinking my mom had a place for us only to find out she was living in a motel. We stayed until my aunt took us in. That lasted about two months. Until she threatens our lives and we ended up staying with my grandpa and aunts. Until two months they kicked us out. All the while I was 7 months pregnant and now homeless. My husband and I managed to stay in a motel until I gave birth on Nov. 23rd. Until a week after I gave birth we were kicked out of the motel because we were short.

We were fortunate to live with a friend of mine immediately after that. The arrangement was that we would pay for food and save money. I have been using all my EBT to get these people food. I get no thank you. But after our other roommate lost her job and her boyfriend not being paid enough we were asked to pay $200 every month. Mind you, I have EBT and some financial help but asking $200 leaves me with little to no money for our family. And the food situation, we have 6 people in the house. Two are stoners, so food goes fast and so does our EBT.

So we find out the lease ends May 31st, a few days ago we asked if we could possibly pay 100 to save to move. Since everyone knows where they are going after the lease and we don't. Later one after getting into a small car accident with my sister I get a text message from one of our roommates. Demanding that when she gets home we have to talk. My husband calls her while I'm helping my sister and making sure the baby is alright.

So my roommates demand I pay the $200 immediately or they were going to kick us out tonight. Knowing full well that my son is only three months old. Knowing full well that before this we had nothing. Basically telling us that if they can't save money and then we're not allowed to save money either. So we had no other choice but to give them the full amount. Well I wanted just to make sure my family were safe but I guess it's too much to ask for now.

What's been happening the past year has been making me not trust anyone anymore. I'm so tired of being so scared. When all I do is make sure that I don't get into anyone's business or make anything unbearable for anyone. I try to please everybody but I guess this is how I get treated. I'm just so tired.