Once you realize how much Worth you are you will be able to stand in your feet and know what's best , what you deserv and your baby!
First comes you loving yourself girl, everything starts with YOU !
No one can save you until you realize that it's your battle ... trust me I was there, I didn't even had a kid with my ex and he threatened me that if I would leave him he would kill me and while he was doing that he was choking me and pulling me hair. I felt I had no scape !!!
I thought he was the only guy that would love me, besides him telling me that no one was ever gonna love me. And I felt so miserable I wanted to die. It seemed easier that way ... Girl you're not alone in this , I know you can help yourself and be free from what ever is pulling you down. There's so many ways to help yourself . From seeking help, reading things in your house, talking to s friend or family you can trust, seeking God, there's a way out !!! Don't get caught up in your feelings and emotions!
You're worth a lot. And deserv to be happy !

be honest with yourself ask yourself what is really making you depressed... Spitting on you is pretty dang low girl..if your not married to him id run. it will be tough for few days but you'll get better.