My mother is really going out of her way to let me know she's not going to help me. Closing doors in our face and acting…

My mother is really going out of her way to let me know she's not going to help me. Closing doors in our face and acting like we're not here. So you're that immature that you'll just watch me struggle with my baby and just act like we don't exist. She always says welcome to parenthood but who are you to say that when she sat on her ass and did nothing while my father did it all, he spoiled her ass so when we were thrown together at 5yo she had no clue what to do. Im doing more overall in my first year as a mom then you did in my first five years. I'm so tired of being here, I feel so alone. She's knows I'm so fragile mentally and I'm so scared I'm going to break down. I feel so stupid for actually believing she wanted to help me, she just wants to control me. I'm so stupid for listening to her and falling for her now here I am stuck with her bullshit when I could've been living with my bf and we be a family. How could I be so stupid? How mean and manipulative are you that you would play on my weaknesses for your sick ego. I'm thankful soon all three of us will be together here in our own place soon and I pray to God I don't do to my children what she does to me.