Sometimes when I'm at home, my son is the only push I have to keep going to university, cleaning, and being there for the hubby. I feel alone a majority of the time. I'm not meaning to come off whiney but in my house, because my husband is the one who is working, he is the only one allowed to complain about his troubles and be comforted and helped out. He helps me out every now and then but most of the time, he is ignoring from watching YouTube, Facebook, or talking to one of his bros.

I feel so alone and like my pain and anxiety isn't being helped out, and if I do complain, cry, or get angry; I'm told I'm being a bitch and need to stop talking to him and to go away. If I confront him about therapy or separating, he threatens to kill himself because without my son and I, his life is purposeless. He will never see this post, luckily, but he won't understand for some reason.

He wasn't always like this, he was my best friend and the person who brought me out of my shell, I don't know what happened.

I'm sorry for ranting, I can't tell me buds or my parents, they would hate him for this and he would tell me that I was wrong and that this isn't how it goes because I'm always being a bitch, 24/7.

Thanks.