Both my friends had their babies. I am happy for them. I just am hurting because they are able to be moms and watch their baby grow. Where I am stuck crying everyday because I never will be able to see Caroline grow up. I have all this feeling in me, mothering and what not, and I just want to use it. I can't keep myself going and I just keep thinking she's here. My life is a mess and so many people keep complaining over nothing. Acting like their lives are ridiculously tough.