@andreakimberleigh your more than welcome girl! Sometimes we just need those words of encouragement to keep us going

@kmarie1303. thank you. truly. that honestly means a lot

@andreakimberleigh ps. I'm not a religious person or a God preacher. ... Lol but I do believe he has a path created for us as. & is their with guidance & advice in needed times.

@andreakimberleigh it's possible love. I've been there may have not just been there with the abusive mentally, phyically, drug addiction big polar ex. I'm living proof it's possible. I'm not saying it happens overnight or its easy bc the mind remembers all. But to move past it is all u can do now. & by your post your on the track to success & better you life in such an incredible way not just for u now. But for that bundle of joy God has blessed you with. Because YOU ARE a strong enough women to come past it & show this baby a beautiful unconditional life. your gunna have your doubts now, but as time passes your mind & heart heal as you see clearer & clearer each day that u are a live & breathing. Knowing each day is progress. The strongest one face the toughest battles in life, bc that's the journey that was put out for us & the man above knows we will get back up & put together the pieces with dignity & confidence.. Key word in all ur post is your EX he's history. Gone a spect of dust lingering in the damage that ur repairing going to vanish to nothing. you just gotta do you best even on your darkest downest days that u are better you got this, he's doesn't have that control over you anymore & no one can give you that strength it comes from within. you just got to bring it back to surface after all he has done to push that so deep inside u too make you feel this way. that worthless hopeless feeling. That is their intention bc their such little people themselves with no inner strength the need to feed off the ones that have it. the benefit you have right now compared to alot of women who have had babies with men just like these is POWER. u have the power right now be4 the babies even born to grant any rights to such a dirt bag lowlife that doesn't ovbs have any reason to care for another human being as you see what he causes to another person. The true power comes at your delivery, you don't use his last name. u don't put his on any paperwork. then he has no rights to that child you are free women to live your life with ur baby to better yourself & build with one another. u let that blessing be your building blocks to a brand new life. That's power. use it too ur full advantage for many women didn't get out till after delivery & now have no option but a legal obligation to keep that man as a part of their life... im sorry love your going through this specailly while being pregnant when hormones make evrry emotion feel 1000×s worse. but those hormones regulate again & your then facing a self you once have delt with & will be the only person to know how to stay standing. But your a women & stronger than ever now that he's out the picture you just got to bring yourself to mentally belive it repeating it too urself everyday if u have too. But once you believe you'll see how intensely that makes a difference to a better you! stay in their girl, your not the only one who has fought this battle it's very well possible I can preach it all I want that it's possible but u have to have faith within yourself to make it progress happen. it's only you too do so. yes support is a very important thing to have for your down days. but you just made a new friend that will be there & understands how ur feeling. Dont give him back that power now that u have full control of it. stay on this path without looking or turning back with any temptation.

@kmarie1303 yeah after years of abuse with my now ex, I have severe depression and anxiety and now prenatal depression. I'm just now trying to get my life back on track. and part of me wonders. if its at all completely possible

@andreakimberleigh me too how werid!! that's exciting! well im close by if u ever just need a friend I can relate alot more to post than u would believe!

As for docs I spoke with her about the same thing cuz 1st thing she said was the med Zofran & i told her im just going to work through it mentally & tough it out cuz the last thing I want is too have to put another substance in my body. & tho my current man isn't a dirt bag & helps me through the times I'm down, & not clouding the matter he's not the mushy kinda person it's more tough love. Lol but I'd rather him be real with me then try putting a fake front on just to bring my mood up. & believe me things aren't always rainbows & butterflies even with his insite sometimes it just comes from within to bring yourself out that slump. But I've had my fair share of the rough road that u have described above. so honestly u ever need anyone I am here & we can help each other when it feels beyond ourselfs.

I'm from Lancaster NY. right outside buffalo. haha @kmarie1303 but I talked to my Dr and counselor about options that steered away from meds. and there are a lot of natural remedies and actually a lot of them almost seem almost like common sense. even things as simple as more water intake help a lot

haha right!@andreakimberleigh yea thought that was pretty ironic. cuz i just talked to my doc about those same feelings but mine isn't something so steady. it comes in goes in strong waves. Are you from Lancaster NY or PA.

really?! @kmarie1303 that's pretty crazy. Lancaster representing lol

@andreakimberleigh u & i are from the exact area!how werid!

@andreakimberleigh you sound like ur one the right path mentally to better urself & baby both. keep ur head strong cuz us women are alot stronger than we sometimes believe! u got this dolly. even on ur down days, u have the strength within to push through if u have come this far!

@kmarie1303 thank you! things are just starting to look up for me and little man. he's a fighter and although there's a lot of guilt on my behalf for how long I have stayed and all the hospital stays involved I finally am putting him and myself first and realizing its not my fault. and I didn't deserve what happened. Even more so my baby deserves better and I'm going to do better for him!

@andreakimberleigh good for you mama! ur doing the right things! & if u ever need to talk u can come here for great support systems

@busybeemommy it took me 4 months to finally realize what really mattered most. I've been with the child's father for almost 4 years now and known him for over 13! But as much as I loved him when my little man kicked me for the first time ...lets just say it was just the kick in the butt that I needed!