my heart hurts to see him thjs way..but until he gets better i cant hold julian..its sttictly…

my heart hurts to see him thjs way..but until he gets better i cant hold julian..its sttictly changing diapers and feeding ..i look forward to those two things so i can carry him...but i dont cuddle him i dont want him getting sick too..his big brother needs me and he needs endless cuddles do im all boogery and full of saliva and germs :( yesterday and today i put jr to bed rushed to shower so i can hold julian i just miss him i miss breastfeeding and snughling him