so hubby cheated in october @38 wks, then we went to dr apt and ended up in hosp with bp problems dr suggested induction and we started. well i had my water broken and given iv meds for pain but then I couldnt stand this ripping feeling in my side the whole time contractions were hitting. so got epidural. that didnt help still felt the ripping pain. when it came time to push i was in agony. even with epidural. i told dr something was wrong when i would push i would feel baby go down and come back up. they said do it do it youre fine. my mom told the dr if she says something is wrong then you listen to her and no body else. shes gone through labor before and knows what it feels like and she feels somethings wrong so they took me in for csection.e nded up having a rip in my uterus and a blockage keeping baby in. hubby said i gave up easy and he absolutely refused and threatened to leave when i begged him to go in o.r. with me. he still wouldn't his mom told him he couldn't leave but to sit in waiting room. so my mom ended up going back with me for my csection. he sat in the waiting room. then wants to cry to his mom he couldn't lose me etc he dont know if that was the last time he would see me. hes heard horror stories of women bleeding out. so he chose even with these fears to wait in waiting room. when any other husband im sure wouldve spent every second by their wifes side if it was her last seconds. nope, mine whined like a baby and sat in a waiting room. i feel hatred for him not being there. he refused to hold my leg with our first he was a baby about it. idk im so fed up, I just feel like the connection he has with our oldest isnt there with our new baby because he wasnt there for first 20min of his life. didnt cut either cord or hear baby #2's first cry. i heard both babies first cries. but if he was so scared to lose me why cheat and continue trying to cheat now makes no sense to me. he was talking to a girl as a friend he says but met up with her on one of his days off and made out with her and was touching on her and came home. no sex because I remembered the whores # and told her via txt his wife and kids were leaving if he didnt call me miraculously he says he wasnt with her but he called 2 mins later after i called 48 yes 4-8 times and rang to voicemail here i was sitting home with our children waiting 4 hrs for him to get back. why should i keep trying to make a family with someone who doesnt want the same.