I felt the same emotions; however, his absents does not dictate your faith as a mother. It's difficult raising a child without and with a partner, read all these post on here from women complaining about their husband/boy not helping, cheating on them, abusing them, and walking away from them after many years. I do not know of one person, personally, whose in a stable relationship with and without kids. I understand the desire to want to raise a child with a loving partner, we should all want that. Nevertheless, it does not always happen in the manner which we prefer it to. I say this to encourage you to focus on your child and yourself. You're feelings are absolutely valid; however, anything thats not used as an instrument to better your situation, must be discarded.

I also feel the same

you did not fail he did I don't know your situation but it don't matter he fail if he is not good enough not you. you need to be a amazing mother put him to shame maybe he will grow up and start acting like the father that baby deserves. and I don't mean this in a bad way but you should never regret keeping your baby the baby is not to blame for his dad not been good enough to make you feel like you got this. but that is why you got a community of mothers here for to tell you you are good enough and you got this you and if he ever does good by his kid and you it will be like a unnecessary plus because you will have it under control with or with out him.

Right there with you, we'll be alright..hang in there!