Just told my mom and boyfriend that I've been feeling depressed lately. I haven't been happy. I used to be so happy when we first brought Elizabeth home. Now that happiness is almost gone. It gets worse at night. Especially when I have to wake up and pump in the middle of the night. I'm thinking about not pumping anymore too. I lose so much time because of it. It takes so much out of me. I don't get any sleep because of it too. And sometimes I just can't hold my little girl. It's not because I don't love her because I do with all my heart. I just can't handle her sometimes and it frustrates me. I think I'm just severely tired. I just want to be able to sleep but pumping keeps me from doing that. Guess I'll talk to my doctor about it tomorrow.