so hubby confessed to cheating on me on the 2nd.

he confessed on the 9th and told me adter having been together sexually a couple times during that week. i am now 39.4 and terrified. i have my weekly appt tomorrow.

he tells me this morning he thinks he may have caught something from the whore. so he asked me what to do. i told him to go to the e.r. (its Sunday health dept and clinics are closed) he said will they even check me. i told him yeah. now i have to get ANOTHER STD TEST RAN TOMORROW. which last time was a cervix scrape around 16 wks apparently its routine they do one around that time with the dr im seeing. my biggest fear isnt something coming back, its passing something onto our baby because he couldnt keep it to himself. no im not leaving him, we have both made mistakes, but I myself wouldnt have done it with someone who gets around and worse on my pregnant spouse. i knew before he told me about possibly having something because I used hos phone and he had been looking up symptoms of syphillis and Chlamydia, and then effects of the 2 on pregnancy.

I'm upset because I have heard about women having said std's at this gestation and having to have a csection to be safe for baby. all i want is a natural go into labor on my own delivery and this changes everything. they did a rapid test at the e.r. on him today and when we were discharged they said it was still negative but they went ahead and treated him anyway just in case. he got 4 pills and a huge shot all at the same time. they said it was a one time treatment and he should be covered for all the ones they tested for that the symptoms suggested. now I'm just thinking why me? its not like we didnt do it often almost every freakin day! but now he tells me "I never should've done that, she said she was clean, it'll never happen again, it wasnt worth it!" yeah its not worth it when your wife may have to be cut open to bring our child into the world because you wanted something "different" one damn time!

sorry for rant. but I just cant go off on him. now im worried about what if my water breaks according to cdc those 2 stds infect the cervix and I'm worried for our baby. here i was all weekend on our trip hoping to go into labor now im hoping baby stays put until i know its safe. im so upset he doesnt see that either. tells me he wont touch me until i get tested and treated I know its him being cautious NOW but he wasnt 2 weeks ago! definitely made me feel like im the dirty one