feeling weird today. I feel like even though we have been together in this apartment for a little over a year it doesn't feel like home to me. I had to put in storage at my parents house all of my things except my cloths to make room for the baby's things because my husband would put any of his things in storage. I basically just feel like a maid living in someone else's house picking up after them. all I do is clean, make meals, and basically trail behind him picking up garbage and putting his things away. it doesn't feel like I even have a life, I actually have zero friends. I don't get to go out and do anything other than go to the bank or get groceries. I don't talk to anyone, I just feel so lonely. I do love my husband but I don't like the life I'm living here. we only do things when he wants to and I don't get to do anything just for me. I feel like I'm just complaining and being dumb but I have nobody to talk to about it and I feel like if I just keep it bottled up any longer I'll go crazy. I feel like I could cry 24/7. I don't know how to make this better, to feel like an actual person and not just someone's servant. I love our daughter that's coming but I am also afraid that there will be very little help or that I will be left to do all the work while he would only have to play and cuddle with her. I want to get to do that too, I don't want to just do all the work and not get any good binding time with her. it just makes me nervious. I don't know what to do to make things better here. he won't change, I've tried and he wont, he just makes me feel like a bad mean person. I feel so helpless.