Wednesday I learned I experienced an early loss. Today was my SIL's gender reveal and I want to be happy. I want to enjoy this shopping, but I can't help it. My husband and a few close friends know... so our family doesn't know I'm hurting like I am, but this is so hard. We are currently shopping for my new little nieces clothes. I want to crawl in a hole. I know I'm here with my 6 month old and this is her first but still.