Only a week until I learn the truth behind Melody's death... I don't want to know but as her mother, I ought to know the truth. I've been running different scenarios in my head: what if her death was because of me? What if there's nothing wrong with her? The first one, I don't think I can ever forgive myself and I don't know how other people will react to that either, they'll either blame me or hate me.. 😢😢😢 #iloveyousweetheart
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@mioaurellia, I hope you're okay lovely.. been thinking of you. xx
@mummy07, I really don't know what to think even though I've told myself not to overthink things.. I won't hate myself but I can't be sure if I can live with myself if her post mortem results reveals that her death was partially my fault, since she was such healthy baby and there was nothing wrong with her during her anomaly scan and even the amniocentesis. and as her carrier for 23 weeks 4 days, I feel that somehow I'm at fault. god, I don't know how I can deal with the guilt. xx
Thank you ladies @gabilicious @duchess92 @mrsmowmow @lauren1996 it seems I get more positive support from you lot. there's been so much going on within the family and it's been putting so much pressure on me and my bf. xxx
Stay strong beaut!! Here if you need a chat!!@mioaurellia 💖💖
Stay strong! It's lovely to see another beautiful little soul called Melody! 💜. We are all here if you need a chat, but please don't ever blame yourself!! She's so precious and you will always have her with you! 👶🏻❤️ xxx
this has just broke my heart people around you should be supporting and loving you am sure they wot blame or hate you try to stay strong I know it's easy for me to say am sure all of us on here will be here to talk of you need it xx
no one will blame or hate you, it was something that couldn't be controlled 💔 you will have her forever in your heart xxx
It'll be ok Hun stay strong for your beautiful angel xx
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I don't care what ppl think of me, but I'm seriously considering putting my baby up for adoption. I love her with all of heart, but doing this alone is hard. Every single night she just screams to the top of her lungs and I do everything to soothe her. I don't know what to do at all. I wish I had some kind of help. I don't have a single ounce of help. I don't know a single soul in Minnesota either.
So I'm having some late pregnancy worries... What if cant comfort her? What if I don't know why shes crying? Like say we're out and shes screaming and I just don't know what she wants!! That thought scares the shit out of me!
Good'Morning Ladies! Has anyones baby just being very fussy and you don't even know what it could be anymore sense i try everything already & this past days she is just very fussy!!😞😖😖😩 I use to just leave her in her swing she will be happy & fall to sleep now i use her Bouncy,Swing & Nothing she will be there for a bit then start crying she has been crying a lot lately and don't know what it could be anymore i try to give a warm bath & nothing either just don't know anymore💁😨😟
How are you Hun???? Been too long xx