Aaww mane! Um so sorry to hear that. I pray it gets better. I had a bad dream night before last. I was crying in my dream and woke crying. I felt myself crying before I actually woke up. It was so weird.

I know how you feel. I was actually abandoned by y whole family when I was 11. They all left me here in the USA and they took off to Mexico. Years of therapy and depression drugs and nothing helped. I have them in my life now but it's been a hard process. My last pregnancy I felt like death was around me like I could feel a presence around me. My boyfriends grandmother ended up passing in February to liver cancer. I haven't felt anything since then but it would scare me so bad.