So excited to finally meet my sweet little girl... actually getting pretty excited for labor lol. I love me a good challenge 😂 And I look forward to just holding her and even hearing her cry and changing her poopy diapers, just cuz she feels like so much of a blessing. And I can't WAIT to see her and her daddy's relationship. He already loves her SO much and can't WAIT for her to get out of there, and I just KNOW that she can't wait to meet him either. I'm even excited for her to meet my dad, since I know she'll just be his next little darling, just like I was when I was born, or my younger sisters when they were born 😍
But I'm definitely not looking forward to not being able to feel her move inside me anymore. And I know I'll miss this belly (even though I miss my old belly right now, and all my cute skinny jeans I would wear... *sigh.*). And I'm still unsure how I feel about breastfeeding, even though I know it will be best for her... Like, I want to in theory, but the concept still makes me feel a little uncomfortable, just because I've always had a really poor relationship with my boobs. And I want to cloth diaper but I still don't know how hubby feels about it, or if he'll be comfortable seeing that kind of money get spent all at once even though I KNOW for us it would be way cheaper in the long run- especially since we're in money-saving mode right now and will be for pretty much the whole time baby will be in diapers. And I'm definitely nervous about the possibility of developing PPD since I've had depression before. And I'm worried a bit about hubby and I'd relationship and how that will be affected, too, especially since we haven't talked much about who's responsible for what after she's born and he's in school right now and I'm not, so I'm nervous I'll get saddled with most of the baby care for a good long while... and I'm DEFINITELY nervous about doing something stupid like accidentally dropping the baby on one of the many poorly-carpeted areas of the basement we currently live in, or on the stairs, or that a spider or other bug will get into her bassinet and either scare the living crap out of me or bite her or otherwise bother her...
Basically, I'm very VERY excited, and I guess also a bit hesitant, but for now I'm chill enough I think I can take things as they come. For the most part. I think. Maybe. I just need to check up and make sure hubby is on board so I don't feel like I'm alone in all of this, and do the last few things left to do before she comes so that I can just RELAX for these last days/weeks of pregnancy, and get over those little nervous things (like the dropping her or the bugs).