I hsve a feeling ppd is starting to hit me.. I was trying so hard to avoid it. but i just woke up…

I hsve a feeling ppd is starting to hit me.. I was trying so hard to avoid it. but i just woke up from my nap and looked at my little boy in his swing who is now 3 weeks old and realized i only have 3 weeks left before I'm forced to leave him to get s job :'( I'm so terrified that I'm him a lose the bond i have with him. even his daddy doesn't have the same bond.. i don't want him to get some type of bond with a stranger :'( I don't want to miss everything he does.. I want to see it all :'( all his holding his head up, sitting up, getting foor for the first time, rolling or crawling 😭 I want to be there for it all 😭😭