My brothers signed me up at the gym they're going to and they're gonna help me lose the baby weight, I got a job offer at the store I'd buy my plugs from, my dad gave me one of his cars that's been sitting here. Not the best but it'll get me around and my husband and I are being civil about our whole situation. I realized I'm better off alone , and as fucked up as this sounds I'm looking forward to my divorce. My kids will still have their dad around and they won't see our toxic relationship. I feel better. I feel happy. Things are finally looking up.