With only 2 days till AF is supposed to show.. I can't help but get in my feels. I start to remember my last positive pregnancy test. How excited I was, and how happy. Then I started to bleed and it didn't stop for days till I passed the baby. Seeing my doctor and see the fears in his eyes that he might have to tell me bad news. Getting the blood test results back and having that call that says "I'm sorry but you had a miscarriage. Your blood levels are still elevated so your still gonna have symptoms but it's still pretty clear this pregnancy is over." What. Having to tell my husband hey guess what we don't have a baby anymore..? Trying to explain that to my little sister who I told in my excitement. Seeing the sadness in my moms eyes and her grieving over the loss. As much as I hope and try not worry it always creeps up when the excitement gets too real. Every little cramp sends chills up my spine. Nervousness is getting real at this point. I so so soooooo hope that this month will be my month and that AF will stay away and that I'll get that amazingly beautiful BFP again. Baby dust to all y'all ladies and congratulations to everyone who got their sticky bean this month!✨💫☄🌌🌠🙏🏼