I've been so freaking suicidal this past week and a half. I finally told my husband and my dr…
I've been so freaking suicidal this past week and a half. I finally told my husband and my dr though. My depression meds got doubled and a referral for counseling was put in again. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for years, but I don't recall thinking about it this much since I was hospitalized for self harm when I was 15 (I was hospitalized because I was dissociating and didn't remember doing it). I would never ever go through with anything but it's still hard to have those thoughts. On top of all that my PTSD has been flaring up and I seem to be remembering repressed memories from my childhood. Not fun.
Michelle·
Мама сына (5 лет), беременна (31 нед.)
I was in the same place and thank goodness for medication and I'm so glad you told someone that's always the first step. were you taking medication when you were pregnant? I'm on meds now and my fear is struggling after
Mariah·
Мама сына-младенца
@michelle2220, I had been off meds for awhile but got back on when I found out I was pregnant. Started out on 10 mg celexa which is half of the usual starting dose. Upped it to 20 right before i gave birth. Now they bumped it to 40. I'd talk to your dr about bumping up your dose a few weeks before you give birth and possibly bumping again 6-8 weeks pp. PPD tends to hit really hard around three months. Then you can wean down your dose after a few months. Depending on what your dose is now you could also add another depression med. My dr is thinking of doing that for me.
Michelle·
Мама сына (5 лет), беременна (31 нед.)
well I hadn't been on anything since I was a teenager and had to get on something bc of my thoughts. I also think mine was situational as well bc her dad left me. but I've always had depression just not this bad. I'm on zoloft and a pretty high dosage. they actually wanted to take me off it right before I gave birth so the baby doesn't have to have withdrawal but I'm not gonna do that it's too dangerous for me
Mariah·
Мама сына-младенца
@michelle2220, ah. Zoloft didn't do anything for me. Since you're on a high dose, ask about adding another one in, like Wellbutrin. And get into therapy if you're not already
Michelle·
Мама сына (5 лет), беременна (31 нед.)
zoloft is actually the only thing that I've noticed an amazing difference. and I'm so glad. but therapy I've been doing that since I was a kid and I've never found a benefit from it. but I do have lots of great support to help me in case things get ugly
Mariah·
Мама сына-младенца
@michelle2220, that's good. I'm glad you have a good system.