cramping, sore breasts, nausea, increased appetite then I either throw up or attempt (non willing)to.. smh bursts of…

cramping, sore breasts, nausea, increased appetite then I either throw up or attempt (non willing)to.. smh bursts of energy that end in me not having the energy to even get of the couch.. creamy white cm.. waiting to test is giving me several anxiety because if I'm not preggo this month then this is all in my head right?? 😢😢😢 am I losing myself? I know this is causing my hubby to be depressed everytime af arrives I can see it in his eyes I don't know what to do cause I know it's not me with the "problem " and he won't get checked (tested) to see if it's him.. my heart is torn.... oh did I mention I'm emotional??????