I'm falling apart tonight. I'm sure it's just my hormones because I've been fine until today. I'm starting to hate being separated from my husband. He's been my best friend for the last 8 years. He knows me better than anyone else. He's been the only one to pick me up when others let me down... But when I needed him most he wasn't there. He lied to me and cheated on me... (Which is why we separated) all I keep thinking about is how much I still love him, how much it hurts me to not see him or kiss him. How he's missing out on our children and it doesn't seem to faze him any... I'm so confused and all I can do is cry and be broken hearted.