My thought process anytime my baby sleeps more than an hour in her bed.

My thought process anytime my baby sleeps more than an hour in her bed.

"wow she's been sleeping long.. Is she okay? What if she's not okay? I should check on her. But most likely she is fine and then I might wake her. But what if she isn't?? No I'm sure she's fine. Im a terrible mom because I'm not checking on her. Okay, I'll go check. I'm a terrible mom because I'm not letting her sleep. Oh well, I'd never be able to forgive myself if she wasn't okay and I didn't check....

**start feeling sick to my stomach**

"Alright I'm checking on her"

**sneak in, try to visually see if she's breathing, don't trust my eyes so I gently put my hand on her back/tummy**

"Okay she's fine"

**try to sneak out, half the time this all resulting in waking her, half the time not. Fortunately she didn't wake up this last time**

My baby is almost 4 months old... Why can't I just enjoy her nap for once? Her big sis is 2.5 years old and I still occasionally have these thoughts about her (although she rarely sleeps for very long so it usually isn't a concern).

Please tell me I'm not the only one who feels like this?