sorry guys. I need to do a quick vent. I can't on fb so... my husband never wants to point out the good in me unless he's drunk. he doesn't help with the baby at all. I have to cook and clean and try to shower my self with no help. he won't hold the baby for more then a couple secs cuz he's wants to go smoke or be on his damn phone. he wanted adult time this morning while both boys were sleeping. he gets on top of me and mentions how bad I smell down there and I should keep my legs closed. and then this week both my electric and water have but shut off. but luckily we got them turned back on. but now all goes saying is how I ruined everything. and its my fault his bank account is now 900 negative. and how we don't have dog food. I'm battling with depression. I'm on depression pills but this stuff doesn't help me at all. just makes me feel worse about everything. yes I could put the baby in his bouncer and take a shower.. but why not take some alone time with your kids and give me a few mins alone in the shower. and he promised to go to a rent to own place today cuz we are friends with the owner. was gonna see if he would make a deal with us on a computer and let me work for him. but instead he said he wants to just buy a computer when I no he won't cuz there to expensive. I just wanna give up. feel like a shitty mom and wife all the damn time. wish it wasn't so hard to just leave..