Photo isn't related to anything other than the fact I have a cute little baby boy who looks like me.
I suffered a forth degree tear (the worst my hospital has seen in over a few months) on the 28th during childbirth. I was worried at the beginning of the week because it felt like I was passing gas through my vagina and didn't really have control over my bowel movements so I went in today to get it checked out to make sure I didn't have suffer a fiscal. They checked me today and I'm healing nicely and am just suffering from lack of muscle control which is to be expected.
It felt like a huge anxiety was lifted off of my shoulders. 🙌🏻
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Ladies I would like to introduce my babygirl. Came to the hospital and was having full blown contractions and doctor decided to operate me. My delivery was so painful I felt everything.
Dulce Veronica
July10,2019
6lbs 3oz
5:17am
I broke down at my moms house today ... because of the debt we owe and Passover is coming and it’s a very expensive holiday ... it was just way too much .... my mom i guess told my brother that I’m suffering and he called me over and asked me why i didn’t just ask for help, and offered to help when i need it . And gave me basically 4K to help for the month and if i need more to ask ... now one thing about me , is that i will suffer silently and won’t ask for help.... I’ve always been that way. ...
Got to the hospital at 4 am to start my pitocin, well.. I was put on the drip at 430 am , and was 4cm dilated and 80 percent effaced, an hour later. The nurse came in to check me, hours later, and I was at 6 cm. I got the epidural at 6cm.. But it didn't work for me, no more than 20 minutes later, I couldn't take the pain, I was screaming and crying.. And felt everything.. most terrible pain ever, I called for my nurse to come in and she checked me again, said I was ready to deliver, babys head ...
@lilbabyboy16, Thank you on both statements! I'm hoping the rest of my healing process keeps going this way. (: