Drama. Having major trust issues. He's the type to have prepared answers and he can lie on the fly. So going to him for answers is a waste of time. I saw that a sex toy had come in the mail which he left in the envelope in his car. I snooped. Not too out of character for him on its own actually. But considering we haven't had sex in, shamefully, just over a year (bad fighting, sick & painful pregnancy, now we're estranged, sleep apart)...so what's he need female vagina balls for? Plus a $30 raspberry colored chemise that's 2 sizes too small for me? He's bought dildos for me before and I know he likes toys but I can't help but be suspicious of the wrong size chemise. And the receipt showed a backorder on black satin pants in the same wrong size. Do I wait to see if he gifts it to me? Do I casually bring up sex somehow? Its been such a rough year between us. Do I ask where the other toys are from our anniversary trip last May to see if he mentions this new purchase? I realize now I don't know where those other ones are. I hate not trusting. He's been caught omitting truths and is just sketchy even when he's doing legit things, it's beyond annoying. Always has an explanation. I want to think he's gonna give them to me to try to reconnect. I don't know how to get the truth. Hire a PI? Wait & see? Buy a tracking device to hide in his car? Remain unsure forever, let it go? Trust regardless of it being so broken?