.. I have .. a problem.

I want to hurt myself. I want to bruise my already ruined body. I want to cut it. I want to scratch it..

Why cant my husband jusst look at me? why.. why must he follow girls on tumblr, or meetme, and look at them.. why must he watch porn when he knows how I feel.. and I dont want to hear they get bored and have needs. I get bored. I have needs. I dont look at anyone else but him. I only need him..

And so its getting to the point where I want to die. I feel like I have no reason here but to raise my son, and thats the worst part.. I shouldnt feel this way when I habe a baby boy to raise. I want him to remember me as a happy woman.. What do I do??.. 😢