I'm so overwhelmed. My son is in NICU because he was 6 weeks early and don't get me wrong I'm so grateful he is okay but this shit is so hard. I'm the only one who can stay in the hospital with him because his father had to go back to work. All my emotions are everywhere because I just want my baby to get better so he can come home.
feeding him stresses me out because I want him to eat completely from a bottle and he's just not there yet. he's thrown up 3 times today, not large amounts but it scares me. I know it's going to take time but it breaks my heart to see him with a feeding tube and to see him in the warming box.
when he gets fussy I feel helpless because I don't know why. I'm just emotionally drained.
I feel like I'm a horrible mother and he's only 5 days old.
being a mother to a premie in NICU is just so hard. 😥