Just posted this. I thought I was in labor the other day for a second and it all became very real for me and I started crying. I had a horrible, emotionally abusive step mother for most of my childhood who made me feel like I wasn't worth anything. I'm so scared of being a parent. All the stereotypical thoughts are running through my head ("What if I'm a bad mom?" "What if I ruin this person who is totally dependent upon me?" "What if I don't love my baby enough?"). I've wanted a baby for a long time and didn't think it was in the cards for me. I know I can do this. It's still so scary