I'm done I can't forgive him he hurt me to my soul I've never loved how I loved him and it's best to move forward and leave him alone

that's just terrible I'm so sorry. You have to eat though honey and put on a happy face (easier said than done). Has he come clean about it and is willing to fix your relationship? or you don't want anything to do with him?

I'm trying and I know it's going to take some time

I know you're hurting a lot but you have to stay strong for you & your son!