I'm afraid I'm going to lose this baby before I even know what the gender is

I'm just too stressed out....I would rather be single right now....I'm always at home with the kids....he gets to go out and have fun,but I can't. I told him I want to go out and have fun too and he tells me to take them to my brother...My kids are always with my brother seven days a week due to me working in the morning and going to school at night.... I don't have anybody I can go to and talk aboiyt it.....I'm just really over this....He doesn't want to go out with me,but can go out with your best friend...... I'm just so sick and tired of it all 😢😢😢