@kattastrophe, Oh see that makes sense. My friend Steven pays $1200 for a studio cause he lives in California. I'm in Kansas paying $615 which includes our water for a big 2 bedroom. Here we need a 3 bedroom and I'm like noooooo I dont want to pay more than I'm already paying.

@mommabearto2, California is pretty expensive, that's just for a tiny 2 bedroom apartment lol!

@kattastrophe, Holy crap $1000 on rent. Wow no wonder why you are stressing out. thats $12,000 a year. Damn.

@mommabearto2, haha right? thanks mom and dad.... I've filed all the paperwork for state help, and the unemployment, I've made him a new resume. we still owe $400 on rent, but hopefully we'll figure something out before $1000 rent is due next month. plus bills, ugh. hopefully it's just a little while longer until we find money.

@kattastrophe, I remember those days all too well. Its really hard and I even broke down a couple of times trying to figure out how I could pay rent and possibly buy groceries. Life just sucks at times and sadly woman always have to be the strong ones for their husbands. I was raised to believe it was the other way around but learned very quickly that was in fact a lie. lol Thank mom and dad.

@mommabearto2, thank you❤ I know there's a natural ebb and flow to life, it's just hard being tough some days. like, can someone else worry FOR me so I don't have to?😂

I did this for years with my husband and even myself when we got divorced. It switched from trying to reassure him to having to reassure myself that I can make it. Now after being remarried we are finally in a stable situation that when I wasn't able to work anymore due to the pregnancy. We didnt have anything to worry about. Give it time. Honestly you will get there but having to tell yourself and the hubby you'll get through this is not bad. Just believe in yourself.